For the last few years I stopped making New Years resolutions and
just narrowed it down to making my goal trying to be truly happy. No
goal body weight, travel plans, quest for love, blah blah blah. I did
declare that 2016 will be a good year after the horrible past few years
I’ve had. I deserve a teeny tiny bit of good. Although we’re barely six
months in and 2016 has been a struggle worldwide. We’ve already lost
tons of legends, mass shootings and nonsense killings, and let’s not
forget this circus of an election. So dammit, let me set some goals that
I need to carry out through the rest of 2016. These will be my little
rays of sunshine to making the rest of this year a worthwhile one.
1.
To finally get this promotion and transfer that I’ve been promised for
almost months now. It was a promotion I almost didn’t agree to at first,
honestly. I felt this strange need to stick with my current store and
be loyal to a place who has done nothing but waste my abilities,
dedication, and determination. Other managers in other stores saw all
those qualities, appreciated it, and wanted me a part of their teams.
It’s a much needed and deserved move. Once my current manager stops cock
blocking me this move will become a reality and as soon as next week.
2.
To go to and have an amazing time at Wizard World Chicago. I already
have my ticket, but anyone who knows me knows that when a concert,
convention, or anything dealing with people I admire I do the absolute
most. I don’t care about staying in a great hotel when I get to Chicago,
but what I DO care about is hoping I have the funds to get a photo with
Sebastian Stan and Norman Reedus. That’s where goal #1 comes into play
and I need my boss to stop fucking around. I haven’t had a trip in
forever and I need this so much.
3. This year I need to sit back
and let love find me. I keep looking and sooner or later I’m
disappointed by what I find. I find liars, cheats, manipulators, and
overall just dishonest BOYS who take no responsibilities for their
actions. If when the ball drops on the last night of this year I’m alone
I’ll be okay because I refuse to keep settling. I refuse to see what’s
going on in front of me and sticking it out a little bit longer hoping
for the best when I know deep down there is no best to come. I deserve a
MAN that is going to love me at my best and love me even more at my
worst. I’m going to hold out for a partner that is mature enough to know
that a relationship is work and both of us should be putting in 100%.
No more feeling like I’m with someone who is purely only interested in
physical. I deserve much more than that. So no more losers in dull armor
that’s spit shined. With that said I’ll still be adding to my “
Tragic Crush Tales” and telling the stories of my failed attempts with these dudes as if I’m the Jane Goodall of fuckboys.
4.
This is a goal for the rest of my life not just the rest of 2016. I
need to stop letting people get the best of me. I need to stop reacting
to something that shouldn’t matter. I should just throw my head back,
laugh, and keep it moving. Case in point one of these fuckboys mentioned
in #3 keeps making posts on social media that are most likely aimed at
me. Almost responded, but why give him the satisfaction? He was talking
to me and other girls at the same time and has possibly moved on with
one. So, dude you won. You have someone, but yet you still keep coming
for me. That’s something you have to laugh at. You have a woman in your
life now so why keep bringing any attention, negative or otherwise, my
direction? Obviously still in his feelings, but that sounds like a
personal problem. No more immediate reactions from me. I’m just gonna
like his posts to piss him off. I’ll no longer let people get the best
of me, but I will continue to live the petty life.
5. I say
this every year, but I feel like in 2016 it may be a real possibility. I
want to travel to NY for my birthday this October. If #1 can follow
through immediately, and with not much to pay for on #2, I should be
able to afford at least a little four day trip to a place I’ve always
wanted to go. My fingers are really crossed on this one. Even better is
my BFF lives in Philly and her birthday is two days before mine. It
would be nice to experience that with her.
6. Last but not
least my biggest goal is to keep moving forward. Too many times have I
looked back. What for? There’s nothing back there. Just keep swimming.
Just keep swimming.
-Asia Aneka Anderson
