I really am the type of person who likes to encourage others and sort of let my own dreams fizzle out. It may be the curse of the Libra. I know most Libras are like that to an extent, but I'm definitely more invested in others than I am myself. For instance  I have a friend in a band (actually he's more of an acquaintance) and they had their first national appearance on TV today and I was stupid proud. I don't even live in the same state as they do anymore and haven't seen them live in years, but I really hope they reach the highest status. They're good guys, talented, and deserve good thing. See, that's something I wish I could say for myself. I want to start a YouTube channel about myself and showcase my singing, finish the few books I'm working on, start on a script, start a photography project, and a whole host of other things, but I talk myself out of it. I don't feel like I totally deserve it and even more I don't have anyone to share these things with. I'm a sharer, especially when it comes from my creativity, because it's others who I get my creative energy from. I still do the things that I want to do, just not with the enthusiasm that I should, but I'm trying to change that. One day I will have accomplished all these things and then some. I can't wait for that day. 

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