Boyfriend G was my very first love. I don’t know what it was
about him that made me fall completely head over heels. We met in eighth
grade through my best friend. He actually broke my heart before we even
started dating. My best friend volunteered to tell him about me one day
and somehow the next morning I was greeted by my best friend telling me
of how he asked her out. I guess what’s most disappointing about this
is that I’ve had several best friends do this to me since, but I
digress.
I don’t remember how many months later, but
they broke up and G and I started to date. I remember that our very
first date was to see “Titanic”. Even now I can’t watch that movie
without smelling Winterfresh gum, which was his favorite. G was my first
love and my first kiss. Like most teenage girls, I also offered my body
in hopes that it would make him love me more when I found out he was
cheating on me with a girl that was much older. At 14 there was nothing I
had that could compare to the 19 year old woman he cheated on me with.
The only thing I could give him was my innocence and my heart.
Thankfully I never went through with it. No one’s first time is amazing,
but how depressing would it be for me to look back on my first time,
not as something two crazy kids did to prove they loved each other, but
as something someone did to win someone, who was unworthy, back.
Throughout the summer he dated this much older girl as a I cried my
entire summer, before becoming a high school kid, away. Once freshman
year began I assume this girl got tired of dealing with a 15 year old
brat and dumped him. I was there waiting because I loved him, but I was
also prepared. We went to different high schools, but we would try to
see each other as much as we could. Since we were not at the same school
I took that opportunity to do him as he had done me. I dated him as
well as two other boys. I had to one up him, you know? I felt a little
bad for involving the other guys. They were good friends to me and were
pretty decent guys. It may seem as though I dated them for revenge, but
honestly I really like them and can sometimes be greedy. As faar as G
goes, even though I loved him I just started not to care. I eventually
realized that all those tears I cried the summer before were pointless
and so was the getting even. I broke up with all three guys and we went
our separate ways. G and I haven’t talked in over 15 years, but I’ll
always remember him as my first love and my first heartbreak.
-Asia Aneka Anderson, 2015©
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