Is it possible to have someone’s presence make you incredibly angry? I
swear every time I’m around my grandmother I’m just so fucking angry.
Like I love her because she’s my grandmother, but that’s the only love I
got for her. She spent so much of my childhood making me the black
sheep and putting my cousins above me and now I’m just filled with so
much anger towards her. Like a blinding rage. What makes it worse is if
she does something that triggers me or says something that’s completely
offensive and I call her on it, she never apologizes. She’ll make
excuses or divert the conversation, but she never apologizes for
anything or takes responsibility for her actions. She has no concern for
how this might affect me at all which let’s me know that I’m not shit.
Never have been in this family and never will be. I feel like this
feeling I have towards my family is abnormal cause I was never abused or
anything like that so why the anger? But I just feel like I’ve never
mattered and no ones actions has proved me wrong in that.
-Asia Aneka Anderson
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